eeew gross

so i feel as though i tried to eat a wall.  they are doing contruction in my office and i seriously feel like i may have tried to eat the dry wall.  yesterday was horrible.  there was dust everywhere, it looked as though we were on fire and the smoke was coming up the stairs.  but in reality.  it was clouds of dust that made its way past the tarp.  i sneezed at one point yesterday and hacked up this huge lugie.  it was gross, so nasty.  now everytime i swallow i feel as though my head will cave in and my throat gives a little nnnnooooo.  i went to bed last night and woke suddenly like i need WATER.  i drank a glass greedily and fell back asleep only to wake as though someone slipped me a roofie.  i want to go back to bed...but i can't.

thursdays at work are fun.  everyone else is so busy i can pretend to do work.  sometimes i feel like peter from office space.  I do about an hour of real work a day.  well that is not entirely true.  i really only do work from about 10  to 12.  ok so two hours of work.  but thrusdays are great because wednesdays are so busy.  wednesdays are check day - i love wednesdays.  i love the rush of being busy and having something to do.

it is not that i hate my job or even what i my job entails.  i think i enjoy certain aspects of my job.  i love numbers and learnign the solution to a problem.  what i hate is having to deal with everyone else.  no one every wants to admit they are wrong.  no one wants that extra surcharge on their order because it cuts into their commision.  i want to shake these people and be like - i dont make commision, and i do all your grunt work.  so i basically have devised a new plan, you dont help me i dont help you.  i can barely pay my bills.  poor matty face last night had to borrow my credit card just to buy gas and ciggies.  now i fear i wont have enough room on my charge card to pay for my LONG ado hair appointment.  so why should i give a fuck and fret about people who have a ton of money.  i say FIRE ME if you think i am nto doign a good job, FIRE ME if i defy your rules.  i am pretty sure i can easily get another job in less than a month or go on unemployment with the chance to look for the perfect grad program.

i gotta go everyone is in my cube and talking about the Phillies....