6 WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Oh my gosh ~ today is 6 weeks till my Wedding!!! My friends keep asking me if I am nervous. I’m not nervous just anxious. Is it weird that I am almost offended that people are asking me if I am nervous? Nervous would suggest I am not 100% sure that I am marrying the right person. That’s it for now, I just was forced to do one of those lame 2 things about me things and it has totally thrown me, blahhhh

25 THINGS ABOUT ME

1) hate these things and all things chain mail related

2) miss everyone I went to college with, even the people I didn’t like when I was in college!

3) don’t regret my past or the things that happened to me that were not my fault

4) am marrying my HS boyfriend

5) work in accounting and hate myself for it

6) wish I was more dedicated to my artwork

7) love bad B-flicks

8) want kids but not sure if I am anywhere near ready

9) have the best guy friends in the world, Dave K Josh Samir Rob G (hence why they are my bridesmen at my wedding)

10) just bought a house in philly but miss home

11) can’t wait to clean my house this weekend

12) have two puppies that are monsters

13) is my favorite number

14) am the most serious yet goofy person you might ever meet

15) love skull and crossbones (currently wearing a bow with a skull in my hair, and yes I am at my office job)

16) mac nerd

17) wish I was better technologically advanced but I have Matt for that

18) bookworm (I joined a book club and I haven’t been excited this in years)

19) check my email 50 times a day

20) freaked out by bugs, but I had a pet millipede named Nessie

21) allergic to casein, makes my life almost impossible

22) wish I could dye my hair blue again

23) love power tools, Home Depot is awesome

24) ate Sonic once and it was amazing

25) don’t eat red meat or pork, but promised Matt that one year before I get pregnant I will start to eat red meat

please dont crash

I have not written in ages. But that is not 100% my fault. I usually write my blog while I am at work. Simply because the puppies make life difficult and it is hard to do anything besides sit still and let them lick your face. But lately, whenever I try to post my blog my system crashes and then I am like ‘dammit I am not rewriting that!!” SO here is yet another attempt. (work computer, please don’t crash)




Anyway, today is 1/27/09 that means something like 44 days till my wedding. Ahhhhh! I spoke with one of my bridesmen last night and even he was like. “Yeah dude, you must be freakin’. Your wedding is like a month away.” Thanks to my loving friend but yes I am. Not freaking because I don’t wanna get married, but freaking because I am a control freak. All my friends are aware and this friend is particular has been on the wrong end of a PMS fit more than once. I think he is slightly glad that I am getting married so when I get in one of my moods I don’t arrive at his house and demand he let me organize something or clean something. I didn’t like my roommate so I pretty much lived on his couch. But I think we all lived on that couch. We would all roll by on a Friday night and not leave till Sunday.



But back to me and my wedding. So yes, we still have not chosen a honeymoon location nor have we figured out what we are doing with the pups. But my current freak out is my tattoos. I have a bunch, and I say that as if I have small elegantly placed ones. But they aren’t. I have a huge chest piece that is in no way hide able. I have a back piece and a piece under my left bicep. I normally cover these with my clothing. I work in a conservative office environment and keep that side of personality under wraps. But I had planned to wither buy a dress to cover them or wear a garment and the final answer was use tattoo cover-up. I had my trial over the weekend and I wanted to cry. She had to cake so much on that I am worried the makeup will damage my dress or the coat I will wear. Now I am contemplating coming out of the proverbial tattoo closet. I am so scared. My parents are extremely conservative and they paid for most of the wedding. I don’t want to embarrass them. I understand that this would mean that I am an embarrassment and that this is my wedding day. But I care what they think. And yes, at some point I would have to come out of the closet. I am 28 I want to have kids and play at the beach and show my parents pictures of that. But I have a sister who is 5 years older than me. She also has tattoos and she keeps it a secret as well. Her husband has this amazing piece on his bicep of my sister as a pinup. It is so hot!



I don’t know what to do. I am having lunch with my mom on Feb 14th. Hopefully I will grow a pair and tell her. I know it will make the face so happy to see his blushing bride walk down the aisle all tatted up.